I don’t know how to write about the events in Paris that occurred this weekend, because I can’t really think about it without remembering the hell I put myself through after Sandy Hook. I didn’t sleep well for weeks, because I kept seeing myself in the classroom.
But Paris, this weekend… it’s the same feeling as Sandy Hook. And 9/11, and the Boston Marathon bombing, and the mass shootings in Oregon, California, Fort Hood, Washington, DC, Virginia, Colorado, Louisiana, Tennessee, Charleston…
I’ll stop now.
I just don’t understand it. I will never understand it. I know humans have been hurting other humans ever since there WERE humans.
But I just don’t know.
Today I went for long slow distance run, because I’m back in marathon training mode. And whenever my thoughts touched on the events in Paris, and the fear bubbled up, I offered up the lovingkindness mantra. It goes like this:
May you be free from danger.
May you be happy.
May you be healthy.
May you live with ease.
It helps. A little, anyway.
To the city of Paris and the people affected by the events this weekend: May you be free from danger. May you be happy. May you be healthy. May you live with ease.