To me, there’s nothing more hopeful than making New Year’s resolutions.
There’s a magic in standing at the close of a year, looking ahead to the clean slate of a new year, and figuring out the small – or big – changes I’ll make. I just love planning ahead and dreaming about the future, I suppose.
That said, in 2015 my only resolution was to make no resolutions. I had just come off a year of Control Issues; my eating was borderline disordered, I was borderline injured from running 6 days a week, I was having panic attacks and anxiety issues and what felt like a real career crisis, and I was worried that resolutions would further take me down the path of becoming a complete control freak.
And without having real resolutions, I still made changes. I started meditating, I left my job, I bought a bike, and I completed my first triathlon.
2015 was a pretty damn good year, actually.
So here I sit, thinking about the upcoming year. I really don’t have a lot I want to change – just a couple of tweaks for 2016.
The first thing I want to do this year is recommit to writing and meditation. I’ve gotten away from the practice of both, mostly because I’ve been busy and it’s hard to find the time. But it doesn’t have to be all or nothing. I’m thinking I’m going to try for a half hour a day of either meditation or writing – blogging, journaling, or fiction work – this winter when I’m working full time. When I’m back to my part time schedule, then I can try and and do both on a daily basis. Either way, I’d like to use this year as a way to recommit to the practice.
The other thing I would like to work on this year is really opening up and listening when I’m feeling defensive. I have JUST become aware of my tendency to shut down and disconnect, and I’d really like to work on staying engaged even when it’s hard for me.
There you have it: my New Years resolutions for 2016: to stay open and recommit to the practice of writing and meditation.
Happy New Year to you all.