I can’t tell you all how frustrated I’ve been with my lack of getting my ass into my writing chair this summer and just writing. I can SEE the fact that I’m making distractions for myself, getting caught up in email and other tasks. I watch it happen, and I get frustrated with myself.
I know it’s better for me to write daily, too. I used to have a blog that I wrote in daily, no matter what, and my writing felt like it flowed so much better than it does now.
So two days ago, after I wrote and scheduled my blog post… I drew up a contract with myself.
I wrote out this quote from Ann Lamott’s Bird by Bird:
You sit down, I say. You try to sit down at approximately the same time every day. This is how you train your unconscious to kick in for you creatively. So you sit down at, say, nine every morning, or ten every night. You put a piece of paper in the typewriter, or you turn on the computer and bring up the right file, and then you stare at it for an hour or so. You begin rocking, just a little at first, and then like a huge autistic child. You look at the ceiling, and over at the clock, yawn, and stare at the paper again. Then, with your fingers poised on the keyboard, you squint at an image that is forming in your mind — a scene, a locale, a character, whatever — and you try to quiet your mind so you can hear what that landscape or character has to say above the other voices in your mind.”
― Anne Lamott,
And then wrote out a contract for myself: Through December 31, for one hour every day, after Owen goes to bed, I will commit to this process.
I signed it, dated it, and posted it on my wall.
According to actual research, it takes 66 days for something new to become habit. I’m giving myself a little over 100 days.
It’s a start.